Sunday, May 12, 2019

The day before Mother's Day...

The day before Mother's Day I decided it was a nice enough day outside to do some spring cleaning work on the patio.

All of this winter's rain brought weeds that were once bird seed and the potted plants (French lavender, rosemary, heirloom tomato) and sage all died except for the cactus. The chinka cherry tomato reseeded itself into a planting box where it has never been before and that turned into weedy looking bush that I think I've cut down at least three times since December.

Tomatoes being nightshade have reseeded in one of the older bed sites. I'm going to try and move it after I get some new potting soil tomorrow.

But after a dinner of tilapia and jasmine rice, and as I'm watching "Dead to Me" and "Wine Country" on Netflix while perusing Facebook, my cousin sends me this text on messenger that she's got stage 4 pancreas and intestinal cancer and that she's moving back home to live with her brother. And the first thing that runs through my mind is our family doesn't have cancer and it's gotta be the italian side of her family. So sad. Someone at work died of stomach cancer.

Death of my friends and family is going to come faster now that I'm turning 53. The first one was an accidental death of two former co-workers along the 55 freeway the last time I went on vacation. I went to the funeral, but couldn't bring myself to speak. Next weekend, there is another for a woman that worked in another department, but her husband works for me.

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

May 6th, 2019 Day Dreaming

I woke up from a 30-minute power nap and in that between space between sleeping and being fully awake, I saw something in my minds eye. I saw a group of people, teenagers, kids, young adults, mulling about in an office space and they were all wearing these black winter coats with hoods and with a little black rectangle patch on the arm that said 360(degree symbol). And I kept looking around to this group asking, "Do you speak English?" and "Do you know English?" There was one large, tall man in a blue or black business jacket standing, hovering over them with kinda short curly black hair a small mustache and a flat football player looking face, little expression. Maybe he was Security and standing by the double doors? And then I said, " You need to go to the mall."

I have no idea where this dream came from other than the fact that I've been looking for another job on the website and one of the security guards told me to apply to an office that is no where near where I currently live.

Saturday, January 26, 2019

Christ, January is almost over...Happy 2019

I had to work on December 31st, so last year's New Year's Eve was a non-event. The closest I got to a celebratory mood was saying to my staff "Happy New Year" as we all exited the building at 11:30PM. I worked so hard in January that when MLK Day rolled around, I didn't even recognize it as a day I got off work for a hot minute.

I bought rocks for painting and a new rosemary plant to replace the last one that I had for years. I'm going to plant that in the one medium planter/pot and the other with basil. Or maybe I'll move the onions into a pot this year. Last year's cherry tomato self-seeded and I currently have a hedge of chinka cherry tomatoes. It's spectacular. Best this plant has ever looked.

I decided this Spring is the time to go get my mortgage refi in order. I need to get the place all spiffy before the appraiser gets here. So I'm doing things like completing the LVP floor project for the two closets that I didn't do. FINALLY painting my bathroom. Throwing away the broken cheap ass mirror over the sofa and putting up a more stylish one I found at Target with a shelf. Have to paint the living room and the kitchen. All of this so I can get a chunk of the equity out of my home to get two windows, two patio sliders installed, maybe a new kitchen and bath remodels and pay off some bills. But because we've lived here since 1999, it's a cluttered mess. Not packrat, hoarder type piles, just little piles of stuff that need to go be donated, better organized if it's going to stay or put away.

The idea to get all this stuff done in a reasonable amount of time for this professed procrastinator is a simple one. I know I'll be financially in a better place and I'm using the following to keep me on track and motivated each day:

> Clean one thing;
> Fix one thing;
> Put away or organize one thing; and
> Donate one thing I don't need or want anymore.

Stephen's closet took 3 days for the floor during the week and yesterday, I went to Home Depot and bought the baseboard moulding. After I made my purchase, and with the molding in my hands on the way to the car. some random guy was laughing at me in the parking lot about getting that moulding home. Umm, yeah, 9 ft of moulding fits in my car with the back passenger seat down, thankyouverymuch. That's why I cut it that length. Jerk.

The fig tree that once seemed like a miracle when it popped up growing in my #1 raised planter box is now a nuisance. Between Winter, the rain and the wind, it looks like shit and from what I read it takes a year to get figs from it if the birds and rats don't get them first. At one point I saw two on there, but that was months ago and I didn't attend to the fruit to keep it for myself I mean atleast grow it because I can't eat seeds anymore. So really what's the point of keeping the fig tree, right? So I'm planning on cutting it down and/or digging it out.

Sunday, December 2, 2018

Bye Bye November, Hello December!

There are three-four things I used to look forward to in November. Two holidays where I had the day off of work, my dad's birthday and black Friday.

Under the government contract I work for, I don't get Veteran's Day as a Federal holiday? Who screwed up that one? Not me. The building was closed and I had to either work at home or mark off one of my vacation days to get paid. I chose the later.

Thanksgiving was so weird this year. It was the first year in which my son was the one working in the day and I was working at night. And because of that, our schedules weren't synced up and when I got up the next day after working until midnight, I was hungry for breakfast at 10AM. So I made ham and eggs. And then I started cooking the Thanksgiving meal soon after so it was done at around 2PM. Neither I nor my son was hungry at that time, so I packed it up to be placed in the refrigerator. We grazed on Thanksgiving foodstuffs for about 4 days until it was all gone.

I had to work on black Friday and I wasn't really in the shopping mood. If there is actually a shopping mood. Whatever that's supposed to feel like. But still, I know that it is gift giving season so I need to buy something for someone.

At work, we organized two at Halloween and another right before Thanksgiving. The first one I ate some Vietnamese food and it did a number on my guts so I was running to the restroom for nearly half of the shift. I don't know if it was because it was greasy food, or just ingredients that my guys just don't digest any more or the fact that it sat out for hours before we ate. Maybe it was a combination of the three, but anyways, I felt horrible after that, so when Thanksgiving time rolled around and them the team were asking was it O.K. with me to have a potluck again, I was like yeah, it's OK, but it's too much food for me right before Thanksgiving, so you guys go ahead and I'll just eat my dinner (whatever I brought that day. I've been eating fruit for dinner because that's what I can tolerate.... like banana or orange or peach. Apples anymore are too fibrous.)

I had a somewhat strange conversation with my manager on Thursday. You see, each day I'm getting feedback to relay to the team and I'm supposed to be tracking all of it on a spreadsheet so we agreed on Thursday, but then she told me with the volume of work going through the team the number of problems is expected. But it just makes me feel bad that we are having any at all and I told her it felt like, "What now?" and a stab in the heart when she does it. Because maybe I expect more of myself and the team. But anyway, she asked me if I had any questions, and I said we get all these emails asking for help finding stuff and I don't know where to go or even start to look so I feel like the "dots are not connecting". And then she tells me that the first shift supervisors she leans on hard which is kinda baffling to me because the manager has been there for over 10 years and the supervisor has been there for just 5. So what is really going on here and how is it that a clerk turned supervisor gets all these knowledge and not the manager? Blah Blah Blah work, right? Anyway, I'm supposed to have yet another scheduled training session with the first shift supervisor for a week this time to see if I can get the dots that I'm missing. But now I'm thinking that if I'm missing this training, that they didn't follow through with the last training plan, that maybe I should be putting the trainer on notice instead. Otherwise, my relationship with the first shift supervisor might deteriorate.

And now it's December. So I went on Facebook this weekend, the first weekend of December to find out that The Alley is closing. And it's not an unexpected closing, because the pattern of what was happening with the store, but it's sad. The two generation family that ran it once, is retiring, so it's going away. The last store is in Indio or Palms Springs. And it made me thought of the fact that when I went to their store when the closest one to me as in Rancho Cucamonga, I picked up a business card while I was making a purchase. And I had that business card in a pile of other business cards in one of the desk drawers where I have my computer stationed. So I pulled out the pile of cards and went through them because it was OK that I threw away the card to The Alley because that was a store that was going out of business. I actually threw a bunch of them away until I came to one from Peer Development.

I acquired that business card from a guy I dated briefly in 2005? His life was in flux after a divorce, I remember mine was in flux, but don't remember the event other than I thought it was around the same time when my dad died. I googled his name from time to time thinking he died because the excuse he gave me to get out of our relationship was that his lung cancer metastasized and he was selling his house and moving after a nasty divorce, blah blah blah his drama. But I remember years later he calls up at home and I said I thought you were dead, and he asks me about a 3-some out of the blue says his receptionist is a fat slob and doesn't look as good as me. What? Yeah, that's men in a nutshell right there. Women want substance and to be taken care of and to get a feeling of security and men want good looks and somewhere in the process time, aging and the lack of motivation and energy fucks that all up. And at that time I told him to lose my number and never call me again. So yeah, I find his business card and I googled his name and low and behold he didn't die (so was his cancer story all a lie?). It seems he may have burned his bridge in the commercial restaurant remodeling biz, as well as mine, and moved on to people's homes and did a crap ass job of that because there are these reports online that people want to sue him for the lack of quality in the jobs that were performed. I had to laugh because he never did any of the work himself. He had a group of Mexicans working for him for cash probably, I don't know for sure. They painted his home before it was sold and rented back to him. Years later, I remember seeing that someone was shot dead at the same address he used to live at. And I'm thinking that place had bad karma - juju. It just always felt cold and never homey. Maybe that was just the bad energy left over from his divorce in the house. So do I want to track this guy down? No, not in the least seeing all the stuff written about him after I gave him up for dead but isn't it interesting to see the wormhole you can go down just by one doing inquiry on the internet from finding an old business card.

You know the good thing about December, besides Christmas and New Years Day? December 21st or there abouts is the Winter Equinox. The day with the shortest daylight. It only gets brighter longer from there, baby. It's the upswing for spring and summer. And that day is almost exciting to me as Christmas. 19 dark days and counting.

Saturday, October 20, 2018

It's October already?

I haven't been blogging much because I've been busy with work and home. As it should be.

I was hired as a temp for this agency to work on their incoming mail which is a huge project they have each year and then transition into being a supervisor on the file room team once that project has ended.

So I was offered a job and 10/01 was my conversion date. YEAH! More on that later.

But in the middle of it all, in August, there were some fires in the mountains between OC and Lake Elsinore and was notified that my (what would have been my) mother-in-law was laid up in the hospital because she has these attacks where she can't breathe due to COPD. It's 2018, and I think that COPD is an umbrella term for a host of breathing problems these days, but after smoking cigarettes for umpteen years, she has what is traditionally known as emphysema.

So her youngest son reaches out to me. It sounds like he's dealing with the fire himself because it lives in one of the nearby canyons and his new job. So I get to the hospital and assess that she cannot go back home because it's so smoky, so I tell her she's coming to my house. And I sleep on the couch for 2 weeks. It was an adjustment having one extra person with an accouterment of medical equipment that had to be considered before we even talk about the regular stuff that we take on a trip.

So as much as she desired to do stuff while she was here, should really couldn't other than eat, sleep, cook and one shopping trip or doctor's appointment, which my son took her and to pick-up her new prescriptions. I took her to Sprouts and the farmer's market ( she didn't get out of the car).

And then it's August and it's hot. Well, not hot to me and Stephen because we are used to living in 80 degrees but put a fat elderly woman with an oxygen machine on 24 hours a day in a smaller unfamiliar space and she wants it cooler. So we adjust the fans, but it's not enough. so I find a used a/c unit in Orange and snag that puppy for a great price and pop it into the wall. And then I'm seeing it's missing the shroud and grille. So I have to find and buy those online. It'a taken me this long to get the a/c unit properly installed and insulated, but it's in and now I'm doing the trim on the outside. The area infront of the a/c unit on the floor is littered with tools and tubes of construction adhesive.

So with the a/c  plus the fans and the oxygen and all of the cooking, my electric bill spikes to over $300. I'm in sticker shock. She kicks in $ for the bill. Thank you.

Bye bye Acadia, hello 2017 Mazda 3 5-door GT

Certified Used 2017 Mazda3 Grand Touring For Sale SOLD

Used 2017 Mazda3 Hatchback Grand Touring

Certified Used 2017 Mazda Mazda3 Grand Touring Hatchback In Orange County
  • Exterior Color : Machine Gray Metallic Interior Color : BLACK
  • Mileage : 40,241 Miles
  • Stock # : 0S104757
  • VIN : JM1BN1M32H1104757

Packages & Options 

Included Options



Navigation System

Air Conditioning

Traction control

Heated front seats

AM/FM radio: SiriusXM

Fully automatic headlights

Tilt steering wheel

Speed-sensing steering

Mazda Navigation System

Brake assist

Illuminated entry

Heated Reclining Front Bucket Seats

Steering wheel mounted audio controls

Outside temperature display

Power windows

Rear anti-roll bar

Power driver seat

Perforated Leather Seat Trim

Rear seat center armrest

Front anti-roll bar

Overhead airbag

Split folding rear seat

Driver vanity mirror

9 Speakers

Trip computer

Power door mirrors

Leather Shift Knob

Front dual zone A/C

Low tire pressure warning

Bumpers: body-color

Automatic temperature control

Front reading lights

Overhead console

Passenger vanity mirror

Heads-Up Display

Anti-whiplash front head restraints

Front Center Armrest

Panic alarm

Emergency communication system

Radio data system

Speed control

Power steering

Telescoping steering wheel

Dual front impact airbags

Blind spot sensor: Blind Spot Monitoring warning

Rain sensing wipers

ABS brakes

Front fog lights

Passenger door bin

Dual front side impact airbags

Heated door mirrors

Electronic Stability Control

Power moonroof

Turn signal indicator mirrors

Premium Equipment Package

LED Combination Taillights

Auto-Dimming Interior Mirror w/HomeLink

Four wheel independent suspension

Rear window wiper

Exterior Parking Camera Rear

Variably intermittent wipers

18" x 7.0J Alloy Wheels

Rear window defroster

Radio: AM/FM/HD Audio System

Bose Surround Sound System

Machine Gray Metallic Paint Charge

Occupant sensing airbag

Remote keyless entry

Front Bucket Seats

Driver door bin

4-Wheel Disc Brakes

Comments & Reviews 

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    Tustin Mazda is a family-owned & operated dealership located in the heart of Orange County at the Tustin Auto Center. Our commitment to superior customer service shows: 5-Stars Dealer Rater, 4.5- Stars Yelp, and 4.8-Stars Google. We try to make the purchase process as hassle-free as possible and encourage you to call, click, or stop by Tustin Mazda today - our friendly, knowledgeable sales team is ready to help you.